If you’re really listening, if you’re awake to the poignant beauty of the world, your heart breaks regularly. In fact, your heart is made to break; it’s purpose is to burst open again and again so that it can hold evermore wonders.
-Andrew Harvey
This quote is oddly relevant right now, and it also raises a question—what is poignant beauty? A sunset, a rose, the eclipse so many witnessed this week? Can beauty also be less “pretty”? Struggle and perseverance in the midst of pain, sorrow and despair? I think poignant beauty has a bittersweet element to it, and it’s something I experienced this week firsthand, as I moved my eldest daughter into her freshman dorm. My heart would have bursts of joy for my daughter and her fellow classmates, as I observed families moving boxes and carrying suitcases, and I watched students greet each other with enthusiasm. So many friendships just beginning, so many life lessons and adventures just around the corner. And I also felt a very hollow sadness, like I’d been punched right in the stomach, knowing that my baby girl is not a baby anymore and that she is leaving the home. So in my moments of real sadness, I realized that when I let my heart really crack open, I felt not just the sadness (and let’s be honest…a great deal of self-pity!), but also joy, love, happiness, gratitude. And those feelings were just as profound and powerful! I experienced the heart being able to hold so many wonders–birth, and change, and growth, and I felt strengthened with the poignant beauty of these bittersweet, complex and multidimensional aspects to life, that never stop appearing on our doorstep.
Had a similar feeling, of course seeing both of mine off to college. Now, it’s all past me. Thank Gd, our relationships actually grew better after years of college and grad school of my eldest. There are many more cherished moments to come for us, mothers!
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