Monthly Archives: July 2021

I have a complicated relationship with hope. Sometimes I channel my inner-Pema Chodron who says, “Hope and fear come from a feeling that we lack something…we hold on to hope, and hope robs us of the present moment.” My translation: hope is living in your fantasies of what you want rather than what is .Continue reading “The Courage to hope”

Why do some places resonate more than others? Or foods? Or people? But more importantly, why do we question these inclinations? I was listening to a podcast this morning on my morning walk, which I call “the womb walk” because I start out before the sun rises and over the course of the walk, IContinue reading “Being Messy”

I love the musical “The King and I”. And I love Yul Brynner’s portrayal of the king in the 1956 film version with Deborah Kerr. But one of my least favorite quotes of all time is from this film, when Brynner’s king says, “A girl is like a blossom, with honey for just one man.Continue reading “Become Home”

A few weeks ago, a friend and I were commiserating. We were sharing recent moments of insecurity and some tips that had helped us in our respective low moments. My friend said that she had bought a mug with some positive affirmation; I can’t remember what it was but something along the lines of “you’reContinue reading “Cup of Love”

Growing up in an alcoholic and abusive home, I learned early on to hide the hurt. I learned to disassociate. I got very good at lying to myself and others. And, I developed a very presentable impression of a person who had her shit together. But I definitely didn’t and somewhere in some closet thereContinue reading “Dual Citizen”

It’s been a while since I’ve written, but I’m back… Last week, my eighteen year old daughter and I went to the farmer’s market in Little Italy. It was a warm San Diego morning, like the mornings I remembered from my childhood in San Diego, but so different from the humid St. Louis summer morningsContinue reading “Playing in the Fountain”